love stinks
i've been inundated by love this past weekend, and it's kinda getting to me. first off, during our whole waiting in line adventure, i got to sit there and watch girls comin in to hang out with their boyfriends and bring them things like food and blowjobs (ok, probly not those. . .). meanwhile i have no one to come bring me love. after that whole thing was said and done with, i'm back to society for the weekend. we go out to a kegger which was a pretty good time. sure enough, the place is full of good lookin girls, and i'd sure enough like to wager that 95% of them had their boyfriends there. i'm really starting to think it'll be impossible to find a girlfriend.
i think i just need exposure to the shittiness of relationships again so i can be reconvinced that i don't want one.
i feel like i'm in a negative state right now. the ps3 deal was kind of a bust, i'm lonely and horny, and i feel really lazy and dirty right now. not to mention, for some reason i feel certain shame for society. i read an article today about this group of about 100 kids that had convened in a street around a fight. an officer came up to the group and was trying to make his way in to break up the fight when he started getting assaulted. the kids then started chanting "more blood! more blood!" one kid reportedly said "this is how we roll in spring valley." where the hell has all the respect gone? and why are america's youth growing every so increasingly stupid?
i should go join a buddhist monastery. they seem to be free of the ugly bullshit modern society has to offer.