school is almost done, finally. . . . .my motivation is wearily growing thin. i think i have really found what is my cause for dissatisfaction with school and that is the almighty class schedule. it really doesn't help that 3 days of the week i have 3 classes each of an hour in length, each separated by an hour span. an hour of class followed by an hour of break followed by an hour of class followed by an hour of break followed by an hour of class really makes it hard to get into any type of groove. if my classes were all together, atleast then i could get my mind into a working groove. and then i wouldn't squander my breaks between class trying to make up some sleep. only two weeks of class left, however, so little time left to suffer.

i'd also like to state my hatred for the dorms. i have finally realized that my childhood dreams of pimping my room would have been worthless as i have found out that i hate living out of one room. having all personal belongings and necessities in one room ALONG WITH a whole other person and their set of belongings just isn't comfortable. now i am one to enjoy the company of a friend for the most part, but i require a large bit of me time. being alone just brings along the security of knowing that if i think or fart out loud, no one else is there to think i'm weird. i also feel safe in knowing that should i ever need to investigate any region of my body for any purpose, i can drop trou at that instant and not worry whether or not someone's class may have been cut short today.

i have also found that i am way too polite to have a roommate. i like to lead by example and be very courteous to my roommate. when he is sleeping, i turn the tv down very low and avoid making any loud noises. i keep all of my shit out of the way, i try not to let anything stink. i don't really run the same schedule as him because i like to stay up late. he doesn't like to nap at all, like i do. so i do these following things hoping he will show me the same courtesy, but it seems like he doesn't. say i am napping and he comes in. he turns the tv on as loud as he chooses. say i am still sleeping when he is leaving, he leaves the tv on, loud. . . . now i could probly say something but i am too much of a pussy and a pushover. i tend not to care because i've found that most people prefer to get their way more than i do. i grew up with my mom and brother who always seemed to have their preference of how they wanted things to go, and they got their way. meanwhile my dad basically had to take a passenger seat. i think i ended up modeling myself after him. most people say that has become a redeeming quality of mine, how i tend to not give a crap and am easy going. but i have found that doing that too much tends to leave people taking advantage of you.

well i hope everyone had a happy holiday yesterday. i'd like to leave everyone with a little excerpt from the MSU newspaper "The Reporter." this little bit is from a weekly installment entitled "News Abuse" by one Andrew Miller. it's just a little piece where he gives color commentary on big stories in the entertainment world:

Yesterday was 4/20.
And that probably means a lot more to you than it does for me, but I hope it was a happy one. You Piles.
4/20 is the most redundant day in the universe. It's like masturbators deciding to have an unofficial masturbation holiday-probably June 9th. Does that change their daily regimen? Hell no. They're gonna do it every other day of the year because they like to and that's OK. They don't have to get together once every year and hold hands (thank goodness for that). Have some security in your habits, birds and blokes.

i mostly laughed at the part where he insinuated a circle-jerk. but i really did enjoy the correlation of the two ideas, but hey, just because trees are probly planted every day on earth doesn't seem to take away too much from Arbor day. and people buy shit every day, but that sure as hell doesn't take away from christmas. so let the stoners and masturbators have their holidays (they probly can't be on the same day, probly won't be the same people either).

well i guess i could save some content for a further post. peace